{"id":1283,"date":"2011-04-12T04:37:59","date_gmt":"2011-04-12T04:37:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.handsfreemama.com\/?p=1283"},"modified":"2011-04-12T04:37:59","modified_gmt":"2011-04-12T04:37:59","slug":"what-began-as-a-question","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.handsfreemama.com\/2011\/04\/12\/what-began-as-a-question\/","title":{"rendered":"What Began As a Question"},"content":{"rendered":"

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One night after her bedtime book was read and her \u201cpretend story\u201d was told, my four-year-old daughter asked, \u201cMama, can we have talk time?\u201d<\/p>\n

I don't know why it would surprise me that she would catch wind of the\u00a0Talk Time <\/em>going on in Big Sister's room every single night and would want some\u00a0Talk Time<\/em> of her own.<\/p>\n

As you may recall from the post entitled, \u201cI See A Bright Spot<\/a>,\u201d Talk Time<\/em> is something I have been doing with my oldest daughter since she was three-years-old.<\/p>\n

Every night we spend approximately ten minutes just talking about life. It is an incredible means of connection for the two of us and brings a comforting assurance to my daughter.<\/p>\n

Don't ask me why I never offered the same opportunity to my four-year-old. I\u2019m sure I have justified it with: she\u2019s not really old enough<\/em>. Or she likes her bedtime routine just fine, why change it?<\/em><\/p>\n

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But being Hands Free means cutting the BS and being honest, sometimes painfully honest, with myself. And if I am being truly honest, the thought of having two sessions of Talk Time<\/em> per night meant less \u201cMe Time.\u201d While there is nothing wrong with wanting \u201cMe Time\u201d after a long day of being a parent, sometimes there are things that matter more than \u201cMe Time,\u201d things that if you miss now, they will be lost forever.<\/p>\n

So when my four-year-old stopped sucking her thumb just long enough to ask, \u201cCan we have a little talk time, Mama,\u201d I knew it was one of those powerful reminders that I should not, could not, ignore. I was being given the reminder to grasp what really matters<\/em>. Right here. Right now.<\/p>\n

So I did.<\/p>\n

\u201cO.K.\u201d I scooted down deeper into the blankets, as if I planned to stay awhile.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat do you want to talk about?\u201d I asked the now very excited looking child cuddled next to me.<\/p>\n

She looked at the ceiling and thought for a moment. \u201cI don\u2019t know. What do you want to talk about?\u201d<\/p>\n

For a moment I thought maybe I had been right; maybe she is not ready for Talk Time<\/em> just yet.<\/p>\n

But I knew I owed her at least an honorable try.<\/p>\n

So I asked a question. For I have learned there is great power in questions. There is great potential for connection in questions. Questions can open doors that would otherwise remain closed. Within a question, a treasure can be found.<\/p>\n

\u201cIs there anything you want to know about when I was a child?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n

She smiled and thought pensively while sucking her thumb and rubbing her nose.<\/p>\n

Suddenly she smiled and asked, \u201cWhat were your friends called?\u201d<\/p>\n

I told her the name of my very first best friend, who happened to be a boy. This piece of information brought a look of astonishment to her face as she thought to herself: Mama\u2019s first best friend was a boy with red hair!<\/em> Well, imagine that!<\/em><\/p>\n

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I proceeded to tell her how Matt and I played for hours in a tree house that her Paw Paw built with his own two hands.<\/p>\n

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Next came, \u201cWhen was your birthday when you were little?\u201d<\/p>\n

The thought that my birthday was different date when I was little than what it is now gave me a chuckle. I went on to tell her about a wonderful slumber party I had when I was ten-years-old.<\/p>\n

Next was, \u201cWhere do bunnies live?\u201d<\/p>\n

I am certainly no animal expert, but I was able to answer that one.<\/p>\n

Followed by, \u201cWhere do magic bunnies live?\u201d<\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t know the answer to that one, but no worries because she did.<\/p>\n

She confidently informed me, \u201cMagic Bunnies live in Bunnyland, which is way far away just past Lady Gaga\u2019s apartment.\u201d<\/p>\n

Which, of course, lead to, \u201cWhere does Lady Gaga live?\u201d<\/p>\n

Our ten minutes of \u201ctalk time\u201d concluded after I described the pink furry decorations that adorned the walls of Lady Gaga\u2019s London townhouse (just guessing).<\/p>\n

The next day I found myself anxiously awaiting Talk Time<\/em> with my four-year-old. I wondered what her interesting line of questioning would be this time. I imagined we would again share another night of laughter and reminiscing.<\/p>\n

But that night, instead of childhood questions about me, it was childhood questions about her.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat did I do when I was a baby, Mama?\u201d was the question that got things started.<\/p>\n

Next was, \u201cWhat kind of clothes did I wear?\u201d<\/p>\n

Which somehow lead to: \u201cAre their sharks in Hilton Head?\u201d<\/p>\n

Which somehow lead to: \u201cDo people have light up hair when they sing?\u201d<\/p>\n

Then, \u201cIs Rapunzel real?\u201d Ok, so there was a logical connection between questions once in awhile.<\/p>\n

Finally we ended on, \u201cHow many boo-boos did I get today?\u201d This involved counting and kisses. What better way to end a day?<\/p>\n

We have continued Talk Time<\/em> for two weeks now. She never ceases to amaze and delight me. Although every night brings a string of\u00a0 original questions, there is one question that repeatedly comes up.<\/p>\n

Every single night my daughter asks, \u201cHow much longer is Talk Time<\/em>?\u201d<\/p>\n

My four-year-old loves Talk Time<\/em> so much she doesn\u2019t want it to end. And surprisingly, I have found that I don\u2019t want it to end either.<\/p>\n

I love it because it is not Talk Time<\/em>, not in the way that it is Talk Time<\/em> with my-seven-year old. I should have known that Talk Time<\/em> with my second daughter would not be like Talk Time<\/em> with my first daughter because they are different in so many beautiful ways.<\/p>\n

My four-year-old\u2019s version of Talk Time<\/em> is actually Question Time<\/em>. For ten whole minutes she is free to ask the questions that she ponders in that unbelievably clever four-year-old mind of hers.<\/p>\n

And for ten minutes she has a totally focused, undistracted parent ready to explore and answer the questions of her heart.<\/p>\n

Isn't that what all kids truly long for\u2026to have the freedom to ask the questions of life? Is there any better gift I can give my child than to allow her to ask questions without fear of judgment, without fear of being hurried along, without fear of being completely ignored?<\/p>\n

My \u201cMe Time\u201d can wait. Right now there is a four-year-old with questions that only her parent can answer. With sadness I realize that someday she will have her own answers, and she won't need mine.<\/p>\n

Yet, part of me wants to believe that because<\/strong> I am answering her questions now (and through the next critical years), she may continue<\/strong> to turn to me for answers even when she has plenty of her own.<\/p>\n

Although I try not to berate myself over things I wish I had done sooner, I can\u2019t help but wonder what questions I may have lost as she fell asleep pondering them all by herself.<\/p>\n

Yet, my loving Hands Free inner voice is quick to remind me that it\u2019s not about yesterday; it\u2019s about today, and the choices I make today.<\/p>\n

Last night I made the choice to hold off writing a story that so desperately yearned to be written. Instead I had Question Time<\/em> with my four-year-old.<\/p>\n

She surprised me by saying she only had one question. And then with a trembling lip and teary eyes she asked, \u201cMama, when will we go to heaven?\u201d<\/p>\n

Before I attempted to answer the very best way I could, I said quick prayer of gratitude.<\/p>\n

I may have missed a few questions along the way, but thank God, I didn\u2019t miss this one.<\/p>\n

And I don\u2019t plan on missing anymore.<\/p>\n

Whether it turns out as Talk Time or Question Time, try it tonight. Whether they are three-years-old or thirteen-years-old, begin the conversation. Put your own agenda for the night on hold and give your child ten minutes. You might be surprised as time stands still and the treasures within your child\u2019s heart are uncovered. Don't put this one off; do it tonight. <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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