{"id":6691,"date":"2015-12-16T06:27:00","date_gmt":"2015-12-16T12:27:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.handsfreemama.com\/?p=6691"},"modified":"2016-01-04T07:12:05","modified_gmt":"2016-01-04T13:12:05","slug":"consider-being-softer-its-the-gift-theyve-always-wanted","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.handsfreemama.com\/2015\/12\/16\/consider-being-softer-its-the-gift-theyve-always-wanted\/","title":{"rendered":"Consider Being Softer: It’s the Gift They’ve Always Wanted"},"content":{"rendered":"

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“You don't have to go looking for love when it's where you come from.” -Werner Erhard<\/em><\/p>\n

During a nightly walk, my younger daughter told me she wanted to visit a nursing home like we did before we moved. \u201cThere\u2019s just something about old people,\u201d she explained. \u201cIt makes me sad sometimes when I see them. I just want to cheer them up.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOkay,\u201d I said, both pleased and surprised to learn this about her. \u201cLet\u2019s plan on it. And as soon as we get home, I want to show you something.\u201d<\/p>\n

After Avery got into her pajamas, we gathered in her bed and I pulled up this video<\/a>. I\u2019d watched it more times than I care to admit. In this touching German commercial, an elderly father fakes his death in order to get his busy children and grandchildren to come see him for the holidays. The way the man\u2019s sullen face transforms to elation when given the gift of time and presence makes me weep.<\/p>\n

I thought I was alone in this emotional reaction to mere commercial\u2014but it turns out, I wasn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

When it got to the part where the man comes around the corner revealing he is alive, my child began to cry. She covered her face. \u201cI can\u2019t stand it. It makes me sad and happy, Mama,\u201d she whimpered.<\/p>\n

\u201cMe too,\u201d I said. \u201cI feel the same way.\u201d<\/p>\n

Avery leaned her head against me like two kindred souls who knew it was okay to be soft together \u2026 to be open to the pain and joy of others \u2026 to cry if you are moved.<\/p>\n

I gave her that gift;<\/em> I thought to myself. And suddenly a long-held cloak of shame lifted\u2014the one that labeled me a terrible gift giver. It stemmed from an experience at age eight when I hurriedly stuffed a flimsy ten-dollar bill in a plain envelope for my sister\u2019s Christmas gift. On Christmas morning the money was accidentally discarded with the crumpled wrapping paper. My family searched and searched but couldn\u2019t find it. My sister seemed so sad that Christmas morning, but it wasn\u2019t about the money. I knew she would be smiling had I put a little thought and effort into her gift that year\u2014had I not been so selfish. Putting my<\/em> needs and my<\/em> agenda ahead of everyone else\u2019s was an on-going problem of mine, and it could not be ignored whenever birthdays and holidays rolled around. What in the world will I give?<\/em> I\u2019d wracked my brain knowing what was required to give a meaningful gift was often more than I was willing to give.<\/p>\n

Until this year.<\/p>\n

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Until Avery and I had our moment of softness together, and I realized I\u2019d given some pretty meaningful gifts in recent years.<\/p>\n

What I\u2019ve learned over the past five years on my Hands Free journey is that the best gifts do not come in a box. The best gifts involve giving of ourselves in ways that require time, introspection, heart, and sacrifice. And so with that, I want to tell you the best gifts I\u2019ve given. My hope is that my painfully honest sharing might inspire someone else to consider this holiday the start of a true life-enhancing gift\u2014one that will impact the receiver, as well as the giver, and quite possibly the world for years to come. It is possible. It really is. Take a look:<\/p>\n

The best gift I gave my husband was ACCEPTANCE.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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For the first ten years of our marriage I often thought about the things I wanted to change in my husband. I wished he would open up more. I wished he would listen better. I wished he would notice when things needed picked up around the house, look me in the eyes when we talk, and chew his gum more quietly. I really wished he wouldn\u2019t make such a fuss when it came to birthday and holidays. (How dare he?)<\/p>\n

I spent a lot of time wishing my husband would be someone different than who he was.<\/p>\n

One day the two of us were having a heated moment. Before any new experience, I tend to get very anxious. I tend to worry. My husband isn\u2019t this way, and he was telling me to relax. I said, \u201cThis is a new experience for me! I get anxious. Haven\u2019t you figured this out yet? This is who I am. I am not going to change. And it\u2019s okay. Maybe it doesn\u2019t need to be changed.\u201d<\/p>\n

Oh. <\/em><\/p>\n

And while I was standing there wanting him to see me, love me, \u201cas is\u201d, I saw him for who he was.<\/p>\n

And when I decided to stop wishing for him to change, I noticed he opened up at night when the lights were out, and I was all there<\/em>. I noticed he listened carefully when I said, \u201cThis is important.\u201d I noticed he took care of many things around the house that never got on my radar. I realized he wasn\u2019t trying to outdo me on gifting; he just loved to give and had a knack for remembering exactly what people like. And when he chewed gum, I reminded myself I would miss this sound of that someday; the sound became (almost)<\/em> comforting.<\/p>\n

The best gift I gave my husband was ACCEPTANCE<\/em><\/strong>, and it turned out to be a gift to me as well.<\/p>\n

The best gift I gave my first-born daughter was FREEDOM.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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For the first six years of Natalie\u2019s life, I expected much from this small, contentious child. On those small shoulders she carried great pressure from a woman who wanted things to look perfect and go according to her master plan. Natalie quickly picked up on my perfectionistic ways. She began to be hard on herself. She wore the look of defeat in her eyes and picked her upper lip in worry. One day I noticed the door to her room was shut more often that open, and the reason was not lost on me: My child would rather be alone than in the company of her critical mother. I knew that if I wanted to be invited into the conversations, joys, secrets, and sorrows of this precious child, I must control and criticize less and surrender and encourage more.<\/p>\n

I began to acknowledge all the things Natalie did right instead the things I perceived to be \u201cwrong\u201d. I learned there were times when her \u201cmistakes\u201d didn\u2019t need to be mentioned at all. After all, she was growing & learning and needed freedom to try, fall down, and get back up without a critic standing over her shoulder. My goal for our time together was to improve on her day rather than detract from it. Over time, I learned to stand back and watch as this child used her organizational skills and creativity to run neighborhood camps, delve into complicated medical books, and advocate for the less fortunate. Each night she and I talk in her darkened room and she tells me how she\u2019s going to help the world. She knows there will be mistakes and failings along the way, but no matter what, I will be cheering her on.<\/p>\n

The best gift I gave my older child was FREEDOM<\/em><\/strong> to try, fail, and succeed, and it turned out to be a gift to me as well.<\/p>\n

The best gift I gave my younger child was TIME.
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By the time my younger daughter was four, I\u2019d made it crystal clear that her stop-and-smell-the-roses approach to life was a thorn in her efficient mother\u2019s side. But it wasn\u2019t until her older sister articulated it in a demoralizing tone to her little sister that I saw the damage I was doing to both of my children.<\/p>\n

That day I looked into Avery\u2019s eyes and said, \u201cI\u2019m so sorry I have been making you hurry. I love that you take your time, and I want to be more like you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Both my daughters looked equally surprised by my unusual admission, but Avery\u2019s face held the unmistakable glow of affirmation. I knew that if I could keep my vow to live more like her, it would be a life-changer.<\/p>\n

Whenever possible, I let Avery set the pace. I complimented her for noticing things most people didn\u2019t. I began to notice with her. I witnessed the joy she experienced when she slowly put on her favorite pajamas, carefully sprinkled cinnamon on her applesauce, lovingly cared for a sad classmate, or patiently waited for her grandpa. My child was a Noticer, and I quickly learned that The Noticers of the world are rare and beautiful gifts. That\u2019s when I realized she <\/em>was a gift to my frenzied soul.<\/p>\n

This child is now the writer of music<\/a>. It is a painstaking process with a guitar and a notebook\u2014but she has the talent, the confidence, and the patience to prevail. Most of all, Avery has time on her side; there is no need to hurry when you are singing a vital message to a hurried world.<\/p>\n

I gave my child the gift of TIME,<\/em><\/strong> and it was a gift to me as well.<\/p>\n

The best gift I gave myself was PERMISSION:<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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I would be leaving out a critical gift if I did not mention the gift I gave myself. In fact, none of the above gifts could have been given had I not given myself permission\u2014permission to stop being the person who could \u201cdo it all\u201d with a smile while my spirit slowly died inside \u2026 permission to turn off the noise of the outside world and turn toward the callings of my heart \u2026 permission to be human \u2026 permission to use my failings as stepping stones to an improved version of me \u2026 permission to cry \u2026 permission to rejoice \u2026 permission to breathe. I would not be who I am today had I not given myself permission to write for at least ten minutes a day with the hope of becoming an author<\/a> who helped others grasp what mattered most.<\/p>\n

Five years ago I gave myself the gift of PERMISSION<\/em><\/strong>. It was a gift to my husband, my children, and to those who read my truths and hopes. I am still not the best material gift giver, but I\u2019ve gotten the hang of digging deep to give what matters most. My hope is that this piece has you feeling less pressured about what holiday gifts you\u2019ll box up and more focused on what gifts you\u2019ll reach for deep down in your soul. Gifts of time, presence, forgiveness, and acceptance not only impact the receiver but also the giver, as well as the world.<\/p>\n

If you are wondering where to start the process of gifting what matters \u2013 whether it is for yourself or someone you love \u2013 this exquisite quote shared by my friend Kaitlin<\/a> seems fitting:<\/p>\n

\u201cbe softer with you
\n<\/em>you are a breathing thing
\n<\/em>a memory to someone
\n<\/em>a home to a life\u201d
\n<\/em>\u2013 Nayyirah Waheed <\/em><\/p>\n

Yes. Oh yes<\/em>. Meaningful gift giving starts with being softer.<\/p>\n

Be softer with you.
\nBe softer with him.
\nBe softer with her.<\/p>\n

Be softer.
\nBe softer.
\nWe can\u2019t go wrong if we are softer, kinder, more open, more forgiving, and more accepting. Love is always a good place to start.<\/p>\n

And if nothing else, watch the elderly man<\/a> who simply wanted the gift of his people gathered around his table. It\u2019s okay if it makes you cry. It does me too.<\/p>\n

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My friends, 2015 has been momentous with the release and positive reception of my second book, HANDS FREE LIFE<\/a>. Every day I receive messages indicating my words are helping others change their distracted and negative way of life to meaningfully connect with their family and find joy again. This positive feedback is everything to me. 2015 has also been extremely trying given the medical issues I have experienced. Today I feel certain I am on a path to healing, and I have so many of you to thank for carrying me, praying for me, and offering me suggestions for healing. I will be taking some time off from the blog while I continue to recover and soak up the love of my family. While my blog is quiet over the next few weeks, you can find great inspiration in the books I have written. The exact steps I took to be able to give the four life-altering gifts described in this post are found in HANDS FREE MAMA<\/a> and the nine habits I use daily to respond with more peace, presence, and love are found in HANDS FREE LIFE<\/a>. Please look for HANDS FREE LIFE at Target stores or online<\/a>. My books would make an incredibly meaningful but economical gift for anyone who is seeking more presence, peace, and joy in 2016.\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I love you all. You are a gift to me.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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