Today I hear …
Whining about her sister having a bigger scoop.
The relentless buzz of the dryer–a load needs folded … again.
But I also hear …
“This dinner ‘tasteses’ good, Mama.”
The C-chord sounding a bit like heaven on a tiny ukulele.
Tender, loving words in her sleepy bedtime voice.
This is what my life sounds like today.
And if I close my eyes and listen very carefully, that which sounds heavenly can overpower the noise.
Today I see …
Wet towels carelessly abandoned upon the bathroom floor.
Toothpaste blobs inhabiting the sink.
Weeds where flowers used to be.
But I also see …
Gentle hands putting dolls tenderly in their place.
A hole where a tooth used to be—her last baby tooth to go.
A love note written in kid penmanship resting on my pillow.
This is what my life looks like today.
And if I open my eyes and look very carefully, that which appears divinely perfect can outshine the mess.
Today I feel …
Saggy skin and tired eyes.
Tight shoulders in need of strong hands.
The pressure of too many deadlines and not enough time.
But I also feel …
Soft little lips planting a kiss on my cheek.
Sunshine warming my face as I wait for swim team practice to end.
A small hand fitting perfectly in mine.
This is what my life feels like today.
And if I stretch my arms as wide as they will go, that which lifts me up can outweigh that which brings me down.
Today I smell …
Chlorine seeping from crunchy, uncombed hair.
Curdled yogurt in the cup holder of the backseat of the car.
But I also smell …
A Downy-fresh nightgown when she wraps herself around me.
Freshly cut grass while little feet do cartwheels.
Hot popcorn prepared by small hands for my late night book editing session.
This is what my life smells like today.
And if I breathe deeply, that which brings me comfort can overwhelm that which stifles me.
This is my life today.
It is not magazine cover worthy. It can make me want to plug my ears and hold my head in my hands. It can feel exhausting at times. But when I open my eyes, my hands, and my heart fully, what truly matters hits me so hard that my weary eyes are filled with tears.
And in that moment, I gladly give up a picture-perfect life with fragrant aromas, textures so rich, and everything in its proper place.
Because despite the mess, the noise, and the blatant imperfections, I have all that I could ever want: my loves, my life, my faith, my family.
Thank you, Today, for not leaving before I could hear, see, smell, and feel all that was good in you.
One of my favorite weeks of the summer is the week I take my daughters to visit their beloved cousins. I find myself wanting to soak up every sight, sound, taste, and feeling during these special times with my family. Therefore, the blog and The Hands Free Revolution community page will be quiet as I step away from the online world and step fully into my life. I know you understand why these breaks from technology are necessary because you share this life changing journey with me.
My hope is that today and in the days ahead, you too can live with open hands, open eyes, and an open heart and see all that is good in your life.
Thank you for accompanying me on this journey to let go of distraction to live more and love more in the precious time we are given. I am truly grateful for each one of you.